owning your story

Storytime

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When we were children we immersed ourselves in stories. We were read stories by our parents, we read books on our own and we lived out our fantasy stories all day long as we played.

I have a story for you. Growing up, I was fortunate to have my grandparents living with us in our home. My parents built a large home before I was born with several acres of land which had a lot of beautiful trees on it. They still live there and it is beautiful. My grandparents (my dad’s parents) came to live with us and stay in our basement which was turned into a large apartment space for them. It was amazing to see them every day and share our lives with them.

I remember vividly when I was about preschool age on the days I didn’t go to school or in the afternoons my grandpa would ask me “Queenie (his nickname for me) what will you do in your realm today?” I remember looking out with him onto the beautiful hills in the distance and really feeling that story to be true, that I had a whole realm to explore in every day. I would live in my own stories back then, playing for hours on end in the forest areas and around the yard of the house, sometimes with my dolls in tow. The world was completely open to me, it was all mine to be free in, to be happy in. There was freedom, peace and joy in each day and each day meant a new exploration in my realm.

Somehow, when we start to get older, we feel that we no longer can tell our own stories, that our stories are now set out for us by others, or by our circumstances or things that happen to us in life. Instead of being the leader in our own stories like we were as children, we become the victim in our own stories. We begin to tell negative stories about how we are, what we can and can’t do and why things won’t work out for us. At what point does this happen? How can we get back to our core selves that we once were?

I have always been a sunny optimist, that is my core self, however some of that got lost along the way and I am reclaiming it. I do not blame anyone for the loss of some of it, because it was always up to me to reclaim that joyful wonder that I had as a child. I have always felt it somewhere, but I am feeling it much more now. I do believe it is just an awareness that has come over me all of the sudden, like a sprinkle of magical sparkles. The wonder of each moment is coming back and I am reclaiming what was always there and never lost.

I have been writing my own new stories for the past few weeks. I usually write these stories in the morning while I sit in my beautiful backyard garden. It is such a peaceful and beautiful space for me to write in. This morning after I wrote one of my stories I saw a beautiful yellow finch. I think that was the universe saying to me “Great job on your stories, you are finding your spark again.” I felt that the bird was bringing me back to my realm of magic and wonder. Thank you yellow finch!

A story exercise that I invite you to do is this one:

Write a paragraph about last week. Pretend that 3 great things happened that you have been intending to happen. Throw in one great thing that did happen last week. This will start training your brain to think that those things really did happen. You will see the great effects of this!

Please feel free to comment on your experience with past and present stories!

Joyful Minimalism: 

If you are ready to explore your things but need  support and would like to work with me one on one, feel free to reach out to me by email and I can send you a client survey and set up a call with you. I can work with local clients and long distance clients. 

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Transition and Letting Go

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Although it is a very icy day and very cold where I am right now here in Oregon, we are still in a transition time towards spring. I have seen little leaves of daffodils poking through the ground, a signal that change is ahead for the earth. In this way I am readying myself for a major transition in my work life.

With the experiences I have had recently I am going to be transitioning out of baking for clients and into a whole other realm of work that I can do from home. I have come to find how important it is to pay attention to so many factors in the way that I live life, how it affects others, how I serve others and how I feel on a regular basis.

Breaking a Similar Pattern:

Over the past 15 years or so I have mainly concentrated on baking or food-related businesses. It started with a farmer’s market baking business with my mom and sister in law that we did for 4 years while I was still teaching English as a Second Language, my mom was teaching too and my sister in law was in college. Later on I quit teaching after 10 years to start my home pie business. After 2 years of that I transitioned to teaching baking/cooking classes while still taking orders for baked goods on occasion and I did that for around a year or so. That transitioned me to starting a meal service with Josephine.com which I did for nearly 2 years. Then, I worked at a local cafe for around 4 months baking and cooking there 6 days a week. After the cafe closed permanently I had another transition to make. I decided to start baking at home again and created an online bakery for local folks to order from and had some bake sales. I then have transitioned to baking part time at a local farm for their store/events.

Lots of Changes But Stuck in a Rut:

I realized the other day that I had a pattern of lots of transitions but it was always in the same space: food. It’s funny that at those times I thought I was making so many changes in my life but in a way I was in a rut. I just kept doing the same type of thing. I think in a strange way although I love to help people, in all of these food jobs I was looking for outside affirmation from others as to my worth in my work. I was working on validating myself through what I physically created. I have been doing some deep personal growth/development work recently and one of the exercises in a course I have been taking really made my realize this. Although I am very ready for a change I feel that I have learned so much through all of these experiences and all of these paths I have explored through the years. I believe deep in my heart that I could not start to become the person I am starting to become at this moment without this work journey.

New Focus, New Journey:

Coming to the conclusion that I needed to radically change the work I do to take the focus off of me and put it on others and really, truly help others in their lives with skills that I have has been a big realization. It may seem very abrupt, but I am ready to transition over to working in the personal development/personal growth space, not only in a part time fashion but very soon in a full time way. I have found that more than a year ago I had started to stop putting recipes on my blog and I really started to focus on my journey and what I was learning in life along the way. That became very interesting to me and I wanted to see how I could help others with it. Now, I believe I can begin to transition to helping and teaching others and facilitating their own learning on how to become the person they are meant to be. That is such a beautiful, joyful and exciting process to me. I have always loved to write, to create worksheets, to teach others. I am now really listening to that calling deep in my heart to give back.

What is next?

Here’s what’s to come:

  • Patreon Page: I have created a page on Patreon that is affiliated with this blog. If you would like to sign up for monthly benefits that include companion learning videos, checklists, workbooks, a private Facebook group or weekly accountability check ins you can check out what I have available to help you here:

    https://www.patreon.com/expansive

  • Home Clearing Course: I am creating a course for clearing your home. This is a different method from de-cluttering and it is a very manageable, practical daily practice that is easy and rewarding.

  • Vision Board Course: I am creating a course on how to make your vision board for your hopes and dreams really come alive with worksheets on visioning your future, how you want to feel and what experiences you want to have. It includes writing exercises to go along with your vision board to make it a richer experience.

I will continue to blog, write newsletter for my list and create videos and courses. I will also be teaching some courses locally just like the vision board course that I did recently. I will be transitioning this blog to a new domain/new website very soon because I will be taking down any food/baking related things. I have started by removing the “bakery” tab on this site. Eventually over the next 2 months this site will be moved but I will keep you posted on that process. I am so excited to be able to serve you all in a very different, enriching way!

I would love to hear from you and what transitions and letting go experiences you have had in your life. Please feel free to comment below!

Thank you so much for being on this journey along with me. It means a lot to me that you are here to share in the experience. Please feel free to reach out at: trista.signe.ainsworth@gmail.com anytime.